Have not been sleeping enough as usual.. Like 2hrs on Friday and 4hrs on Saturday.. Simply tired of certain things now.. Life have not been good.. considering all that have happened within these few days.. I guess I am the weak one.. not being able to handle all that comes rushing upon me..

Friday.. had work at 5pm.. Cocktail and a standing buffet for IBM along with Agnes and XinRong.. had some fun.. slacking off occasionally, drinking and eating =D.. turned over for Saturday's event after that.. just rolled up tables, chairs and set the table cloth.. After which, we are off to the ballroom to help the people there.. It was chaotic.. with guests still hanging around, delaying time in which we could have clear at least ballroom 2.. and oh.. the couple actually knows of the actress 黄惠 but Junjie who was in-charge of her table says she very "刀". Turned ballroom 1 for City Mission.. while ballroom 2 and 3 for buffet breakfast. Ended at 0130am and went home.. prepare a 1.5litres pet bottle of honey water of the seniors.. went online b4 sleeping at 0350am..

Saturday.. woke up 2hrs later at 0620 for SAVA at bedok.. was super-tired but managed to get my ass there before 0800am.. Had a jog and then the rest of the day was just running to the shoreline to watch the races or just plain chatting.. It rained and it was super cold.. Lunched with the rest at one of the kopitiam at bedok opposite Temasek Polytechnic.. Bus-ed home at T1 taking 65.. a uber long ride that took 1.5hours.. Went to work after which.. totally drained of my energy only to get whipped again at work.. No OT today.. rested early at 0200am.. after going online..

Sunday.. woke up at 0630 instead.. changed, wash-up and just rush out of the house.. reached slightly earlier than the day before.. SAVA again.. but today more sian.. was even more tired.. but that physically.. had a jog again and then it was off to the races.. was not selected in team B but its understandable.. I was not as good as the ones being selected.. Its the fact and I accept it.. It just means that I got to do better.. in order to be selected..

There are many changes happening in MM, a place I am a growing fonder of.. Too many till it feels like I am a little torn.. Wilson, Eddie leaving.. Henry and Joseph.. Now dunno what else to do.. Wilson and Eddie.. I respect both of them the most as Captains.. Always there to solve things, manage the events.. although I always do things wrongly, or slowly.. They just scold me.. And Wilson.. Although same name.. I have never been able to reach his standard.. not close at all.. glad to be even able to be associated with him.. Now.. just perhaps hope the new captains are good, people smart, friendly and able to handle things the way Wilson and Eddie does.. or else..

Just thinking bout her.. and it makes me more lonely.. I wanted to tell but opportunities were always far from me.. SMS seems insincere, calling makes it no feelings.. so I wanted to tell her face to face, serious and have a proper convo.. No opportunities so I really cannot do a shit bout it.. The chance is low.. definitely.. but I just had to try.. don't I? It happened all too quickly.. perhaps it will passed, then again not.. not really sure..